This has nothing to do with the rest of the entry, but today I was accused of going into the "way-back machine" because I said that there was no Dana, only Zuul. I feel so dated.

I think I'm incapable of having a healthy relationship with a guy. I have perfectly fine relationships with MtFs, FtMs, and other berdache. I have a few faint friendships with fags, and a complicated relationship with a very metrosexual man, but I do not have a man with whom I have a simple, uncomplicated, healthy relationship.

I have my Twin, with whom I am pretty co-dependant. I don't think either of us likes it very much, but we do depend on one another, and when he goes into the military, I am going to be lost. We also had a love-hate (more like inseperable-loathing) relationship for the first seven years of our friendship. I don't think that qualifies.

I have my relationship NathanRepo, which could be its own series of entries by itself. Firstly, he's a heterosexual male and I'm a woman-inclined person with gender issues. Any involvement beyond friendship is going to be complicated beyond normal relationship issues, and I think I can safely say we've passed the "just friends" stage.

Then there is the MtF I'm madly in lust with, who definitely doesn't count because she's female.

My father is estranged, my grandfather is an oldschool Irishman who could never accept all of who I am, the man who I grew up calling "Dad" is too unreliable to have a real relationship with, and the rest of my friends are chicks. (This entry could just as easily be about how I can't have a healthy relationship with women if not for Shilo, with whom I have a pretty healthy, simple friendship).

Sometimes I wonder if it's just me that can't seem to have decent friendships/relationships, and then I listen to a friend vent about their tangled weave. I can only hope that there are people in the world for whom this isn't the status quo, because it is very depressing to think that only having fucked up relationships is the human condition.

What about you, annonymice? Do you have any simple relationships?